It’s because I’m a needy attention whore. Which really means I’m sad and lonely. Which I am. I am so sad and loney. And I am so afraid. It feels like falling. No, not really like falling…more like slipping away. It’s feeling so helpless and sad. I feel lost. Like completely lost in a dark vacuum. Where’s the light at the end of the tunnel that used to make me know. Please God, help me. Help me please. I need you now so bad. Please God please. Please.